A few days ago, I found myself gazing at a beautiful waxing gibbous. I’ll typically gaze at the sky while jogging, but I always end up going home once I’m done. That day was different. I had been struggling with some recent advancements in life, and I wanted the day to be over. While debating on leaving, I saw a woman sitting in the grass watching the moon. She was unbothered by the approaching storm. She was simply existing. She seemed at peace.
I decided to do the same. After all, our only true schedule is the one we give ourselves.
I was surprised when I started crying after just a few minutes of stillness. I thought I was losing my mind until I realized that I wasn’t going crazy. I was allowing myself to feel. Movement tricks the mind into believing that we are processing when we are not. We are simply going through the motions of life without truly living.
At that moment, I realized that I had been ignoring my emotions. Sure, I had been thinking about them all day, but thinking is not feeling. We must feel in order to process even if it’s uncomfortable. Only then can we find the root of our habits, beliefs, and emotions.
We can start that process by feeling, continue it by analyzing, and experience it by changing. None of these steps are easy. They’re quite exhausting, but they are invigorating at the same time. Thich Nhat Hanh describes uncomfortable emotions as crying children. The child will continue to cry until nurtured. Nurture your inner crying children, and allow them to form into mindful adults. Give yourself permission to grow.
We deserve to be the best versions of ourselves for ourselves, those we love, and those we are yet to meet. Give yourself time to heal. Life is not a race; it’s an experience.
Make time for yourself and trust that you are strong enough to change. The moon will always be there to sit with you.
Thank you for reading.